Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Wedding Readiness Exercises

A few weeks ago, Ty and I met with our friend and ceremony musician Callie to go over the music for our wedding. Callie is amazing and agreed to put together a string quartet for our big day. I didn't want anything too complicated -- traditional wedding songs, no special music, beautiful and classic and elegant.

It was an appointment like all the others, we talked out the details and then Callie started playing. Immediately, a lump the size of an apple core was in the back of my throat. Sitting in the middle of the First Methodist Bossier youth room, my face got red and my eyes watery.

I didn't get emotional when I met with the baker. Or the florist. Or the photographer. But I managed to underestimate Callie's ability with a violin. Something would have to be done if I didn't want to be a blubbering mess before I even reached Ty. Even happy tears can be ugly, and I've never admitted this before, but I seem to have really big tears. Make me cry sometime and I'll show you. It is the definition of crocodile tears.

In an effort to calm my nerves, I've downloaded all the ceremony music so that I can listen to it religiously for the next few weeks to desensitize myself.

If it doesn't work, please give me a hug, lie to me and tell me you didn't notice.


Annette said...

Please don't desensitize yourself! That should be part of the magic of your wedding day. Just make sure you wear waterproof everything and enjoy every moment.

Stephanie Netherton said...

Annette, i understand where you're coming from with this advice, but my thought process is that i need to do this so i can enjoy it. Otherwise i'll be overwhelmed with anxiety and won't be able to take it all in! I've heard these songs a million times, just never with the thought that i would be walking down the aisle! I want to be able to focus on ty and nothing else!

Mandy S said...

ok, i got tears (not the crocodile kind though...just watering, welling up eyes) just reading this!! SOOO exciting!! enjoy every minute! (a simple glass of wine will calm the nerves! ;)

Stephanie Netherton said...

Mandy, I think I might be in for it! LJ told me she's more likely to cry at my wedding than her own. I don't know how she could do this to me!

I hope when the day comes (and that glass of wine) that I'll be so calm and happy!